I am bee,..

.. busy bee

Adik usrah k'Shee once request k'shee write some updates, what i've been up to.. here it come.

Tapi k'shee sebolehnya nak elak this blog from turning into any typical diary..

Why I am not going to write long about myself;

1) People reading tapi langsung tak menambah iman mereka! What a waste.
(wah, extreme nye k'shee!)

2) I have about 100+ CHE315 engineering reports needed to be marked

3) I have 3 set of test need to be marked : test and quizzes for CHE175 Engineering physics, test for CHE304 reaction engineering and another set of test for CHE314 instrumentation and control subject . All needed to be marked within this week.

4) My portfolio was chosen to be audited by Quality Unit. Sunday will be the day.




Conclusion: Less time more work.

When, my younger bro said once that I am too old-fashioned for not having own FB, my reply would be: I have no playful time, indeed. If i were given more extra time, I want to go and visit my old friends, going out and have dinner with my adik-adik usrah, do some sports with my kakak-kakak usrah and ect. Definitely not FB!

Hari Ini, Semalam dan Kelmarin..

Hari Ini...
Hujan mula renyai sejak dari pagi.
Kak Shee mula bersin. Orang kata, kalau bersin lebih dari 3 kali, itu tandanya akan dapat selsema. Kak shee bersin lebih dari 10 kali malam ni sahaja.
(Sensitif pula akhir-akhir ni..rasenya hujan yang k'shee redah pagi tadi takde lah lebat mane pun)


Semalam...
Kak Shee masuk kerja jam 9.00 pg. (waktu kerja pensyarah flexible).
Jam 10.15 pagi kak shee adakan test untuk pelajar semester akhir subjek Instrumentation and Control. Soalan test sebenarnya hanya siap jam 8.30 pg hari yang sama.
Siapa kata pensyarah kerjanya relax-relax aje. 2hari kak shee berhempas pulas dengan soalan test. Jam 11.30 pg k'Shee janji dengan pelajar semester 1 untuk adakan kelas tambahan untuk subjek Engineering Physics. Kami selesai setengah jam kemudian kerana kelas yang kami 'invade' tu akan dipakai oleh pelajar dari fakulti lain. K'Shee keluar makan t.hari dengan officemate di Bandar Dungun. Katanya, mahu pergi kedai 'pakcik baik' di medan selera Bandar Dungun. K'Shee makan nasi goreng pattaya dengan teh panas je. Perut masa tu dah rasa kurang selesa. Terdetik, mungkin sebab menstrual..

Jam 3.30ptg, k'Shee mula mual balik. Officemate k'Shee tegur nampak muka k'Shee pucat sikit. Jam 5.15 ptg k'Shee drive balik ke rumah, sampai di rumah terus terkam sinki. Muntah! Lega sikit. 'Angin' rupanya. Bloated. Inilah masalah wanita-wanita yang ada menstrual. Tak sempat pun duduk berehat sekejap k'Shee terima message;

kakak usrah :Shee, usrah petang ni di mana?
Shee : tak jadi tepi pantai sebab nak hujan ni. Rumah kak Ana yer
kakak usrah : okey, kami dah ada di rumah Ana ni. Jumpa Shee di sini yer.

Jam 6.30ptg, perut mual lagi. Angin sudah naik ke kepala. Sinki rumah kak Ana pulak yang jadi mangsa. Semua isi perut keluar kali ni. Rasa lega dan ringan kepala. Kena tahan. Lagi sejam boleh balik ambik PCM (paracetamol). Jam 8.00 mlm baru balik rumah. Abg and kak long keluar makan. Mandi, sapu minyak dan tidur...sampai pagi.


Kelmarin...
Kak shee masuk kerja jam 9.00 pg.
Lecture Engineering Physics jam 10.15pg. Habis 2 jam kemudian dengan suara yang hampir hilang. Kaki k'Shee lenguh-lenguh semacam, hati terfikir mungkin agaknya banyak berdiri semalam di program Bersama Minda Tunku oleh CheDet. Tiba waktu solat zohor, k'Shee kena berbuka puasa qada'-menstrual! Patutlah kaki lenguh semacam.
Jam 3.30ptg k'Shee terima message;

makcik usrah : usrah kita petang ni di rumah c'Jah. Ada jamuan raya
Shee : Raya lagi usrah kita?
makck usrah : jemputan raya jangan ditolak..
Shee : baik! bawak kueh?
makcik usrah : tak perlu

Balik kerja jam 5.3o ptg, k'Shee drive ke bandar, pergi kedai roti Sweden beli 10 biji muffin.
Masuk perkarangan rumah c'Jah yang (besar), terdetik : Lama dh tak datang rumah c'Jah.
Kami makan malam (berbuka puasa bg sebahagian kami) dengan juadah mee bandung dari Johor. Usai solat maghrib berjemaah, semua makcik-makcik beransur, kecuali k'Shee. Niat di hati nk berbincang dengan mc naqibahku yang tercinta tapi c'Jah pula dapat panggilan dari HEA mintak cover kelas tambahan add maths pelajar tingkatan 5.

"Shee, jom teman c'Jah. Ada kelas tambahan add maths di sekolah teknik"
"Kak Shee!" seru adik-adik perempuan kelas 5 KM (kejuruteraan mekanikal). Agaknya terkejut atau rindu sebab lama dah k'Shee tak bertandang ke surau mereka.
"Okey, Hr ni cikgu bawa k'Shee untuk bagi tips dan motivati mendapat 10A". Arahan yang spontan dari naqibah, terus k'shee sambut dengan lapang dada. 20 minit. Spontan. Puas. Syukur diberi kesempatan.
Jam 10.30 mlm k'Shee sampai ke rumah. Mandi dan tidur sejam kemudian. Hanya tu yang larat k'Shee layan...


[YaAllah, bagilah aku kekuatan dan kesihatan yang baik]

More to do..than write

I want to write, about..

1- Eid 1430H with full of memories : I have met faces that I haven't see for ages..some have changed (a lot) yet some 'speak with the same slang' as they used to speak 5 years ago.

2- Why i quit my previous the-so-called-good payment-job. The question that my student keep on asking me on. The same question asked when people come to know that I am teaching, now. I rather put myself as educator instead.

3- Why Dungun not elsewhere? My decision to stay in Dungun is firm even before I decided to return to Malaysia. Apart from cost of living is higher than KL in here, I have no regret with my decision.

However I have more things to do at the moment.

1- Evalution on my teaching is scheduled this week (or maybe next week). I choose my evalutor to come to my lecture hours at any moment they prefer, without informing me earlier (errr..wrong choice?). Therefore, I need more preparation!

2- MQA is coming to evaluate our faculty teaching standard. More auditing work to do.

3- Final year student to finish final year project within 4 weeks time. I am final year project coordinator!. Lab works+ analysis experiment and rescheduling project presentation.

4- Process Control laboratory session in Shah Alam need new schedule, equals to more paper work!

Eid Mubarak ~!

“Ja’alnaa Allah wa iyyakum min al aidin wa al faizin” - Semoga Allah menjadikan kami dan kamu termasuk orang-orang yang kembali (ke jalan Allah) dan orang-orang yang menang (melawan hawa nafsu).Sungguh
Belum tertutup pintu kemaafan
Pada bulan kesucian al fitri
Masih rendah sayap Jibril 'Alaihissalam
Memohon keampunan
Untuk hamba-hamba yang khilaf
Penuh berharap
Dan jiwa ini penuh mengharap.

Assalamu'alaikum wrth wbt.

Ikhwah & Akhawat, sahabat dan seluruh para pengunjung blog PENA-TERBANG

Eid Mubarak to all. Taqabbalallahu Minaa wa minkum!

Dikesempatan ini ana ingin mengucapkan selamat menyambut eidul fitri kepada semua.
Dengan kerendahan hati ana ingin memohon maaf atas tutur yang salah, tulisan yang mengguris, janji-janji yang tidak tertunai dan tindakan-tindakan yang tidak menyenangkan.

Semoga kita menyambut hari kebesaran dengan penuh rasa syukur sambil tidak lupa untuk terus berdoa agar segala amalan kita sepanjang Ramadhan diterima Allah, segala dosa-dosa kita diampunkan Allah dan kita dipelihara Allah dari azabNya.

Mari kita sama-sama tanamkan azam agar segala amalan (solat-solat sunat, solat-solat tahajjud, zikir-zikir dan doa-doa mengharap maghfirah) yang kita amalkan sepanjang ramadhan bukan sahaja menjadi satu bentuk latihan malah satu amalan yang berterusan untuk diamalkan di sepanjang sebelas bulan mendatang sehingga kita diizinkan Allah untuk bertemu dengan ramadhan lagi, insyaAllah.

Mari kita sama-sama berharap agar nilai ketaqwaan yang dibina hasil perjuangan (hawa nafsu, jiwa, keazaman & himmah) kita di bulan ramadhan selaras dengan suruhan berpuasa itu sendiri (al-baqarah: 186) menjadi satu bekalan yang cukup utuh untuk terus bekerja di jalan Allah, insyaAllah.

Akhirnya, marilah kita sama-sama memperbanyakkan takbir dan tahmid pada malam hari raya, memuji, mengagung dan bersyukur kerana Allah masih menetapkan kita dan hati-hati kita di atas jalan petunjukNya, berada dalam nikmat iman dan berjaya melaksanakan salah satu perintah Allah sebagai manifestasi ketaatanNya.

"Sekiranya mengerjakan amal ibadat pada malam hari raya dengan mengharapkan keredaan Allah semata-mata, hatinya tidak akan mati (pada hari kiamat) sebagaimana matinya hati (orang yang kufur ingkar pada hari itu." (HR Ibn Majah)

Salam eid mubarak untuk semua. Kullu am wa antum bikhair.
p/s:Jemput bertandang ke rumah di Besut/Dungun

Shee(da)/K'Shee
Besut
Malam 1 Syawal 1430H

The end? Or Just Started?

Takbir and tahmid fill up the air bring up the mood of Eid celebration. It marks the end of the blessed month of Ramadhan. Its beautiful days and fragrant night had passed. We leave the month of mercy and forgiveness behind. Are we going to 'enjoy' Ramadhan blessing month one more time next year? No one knows.

What we have gained?

Muslim with high self-reflect with truthfulness raise so many questions and so many thoughts of whether have they fulfilled the requirement of taqwa as mentioned by The Merciful God in al:Baqarah verse 184. Have they performed 'ibadah in a way that fulfill the condition of receiving mercy and forgiveness.

Ramadhan is a school for me to strengthening my inner faith (iman), a big opportunity to recharge my spiritual battery and a very strong platform to acquire provision for the rest of the year.

May the blessed month of Ramadhan be the true school of transformation in which train my inner self to change my action, habits and manner that are in variance with the Law of Allah, amin. And I keep praying that the change bring me closer to Him because signs for one deed's been accepted that one have improved their obedience to Allah. (Please God choose me to be one).

It's not the end. It has just begun.If I could stand in prayer at night during Ramadhan, then there remains voluntary night prayer throughout the year.

If I am willingly giving away charity and sadaqah during the blessed month of Ramadhan, there are many other doors to charity and sadaqah still remain open.

If reading Quran and all the works of trying to understand it could be done during Ramadhan meaning it could be done at all time.

Showing forgiveness and compassion to people started during Ramadhan month and it does not end with the end of Ramadhan but this righteous action is to be exercise at all time on the basis of knowing Allah is the most forgiving and companionate and Allah loves all who are forgiving and companionate.

I ask Allah to accept from me my fasting, my prayers and my righteous action, pray that my condition after Ramadhan be a better one, the state of humanity improve, hardly pray that I am granted honor and that I am truly submit myself to my one and only LORD.

K'shee

Night of 1 Syawaal 1430 H
Besut, Terengganu